For me it's not a self-esteem issue as I can and have been known to switch. Those who have seen me as a Domme are few and far between, mind.
It boils down to two things, with me - the mandatory "I'm happy when I'm pleasing someone else" that's been mentioned a few times already (which makes life awkward when you're with someone who is happy when YOU'RE happy, yay vicious circles >:D), but its also a control issue.
If you think about it, I live on my own, drive my own car, work my own job, etc. I've got universal control over my life, a lot of it. Sometimes that is what makes me crack - there's too much to be done because I have to make every choice and I'm not always prepared to cope with them. By subbing, I give up that control. It's up to Master what I do - all I have to worry about is obeying him. It's a release from the stresses I go through daily, basically.
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It boils down to two things, with me - the mandatory "I'm happy when I'm pleasing someone else" that's been mentioned a few times already (which makes life awkward when you're with someone who is happy when YOU'RE happy, yay vicious circles >:D), but its also a control issue.
If you think about it, I live on my own, drive my own car, work my own job, etc. I've got universal control over my life, a lot of it. Sometimes that is what makes me crack - there's too much to be done because I have to make every choice and I'm not always prepared to cope with them. By subbing, I give up that control. It's up to Master what I do - all I have to worry about is obeying him. It's a release from the stresses I go through daily, basically.