by you... of yourself.. yes

twice I have found myself.... wishing to exist... purely for the pleasure of someone else.. letting them set the game and the rules (wiht in reason)

which is.... as you should realise by now.... kinda contrary to my regular personality.... where I play on my terms by my rules

if that is not a form of self-minipulaton... I don't know what is

someone can't force you to love them... but you would be supprised how little your own life matters.... if it's the right someone and how much you would give.... even the world is not enough in payment for their happyness