*nods* - I guess I analyse too much. The true self is always something that is hard to plumb the depths of and I guess the person who is least likely to ever discover it is your own self.

Why is living life how you want to live it necessarily a bad thing? I wish I had the courage to do that sometimes. I have just quit my job and I am already worrying about the repercussions, even though I have enough money for the next few months and a supportive mate and family.

You're just great hun, you have been really supportive to me and for that I am very appreciative :)