yes... for the most part.... it's your unconscious face…… you first reaction before you censor yourself…..so you never get to so it merely feel it
your allowed to analyze things.... it's how one learns.... just realize that a lot of things are instinctual.... it is just society and the need to be part of it that makes things complicated

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*smiles*.....I don't know if I should say thank you or say your welcome

nothing in it'self..... one should be able to do what one wants to do..... with in a civil reason (We all have responsibilities and owe certain people our good behavior)

my point was..... I've long since stopped caring about thee world and about my own life.... I could die tommorow and I wouldn't care
half the time I do things.... blindly.... with out thinking about the ripples that it will create........ then deal with the problem (especially for others) post-humoriously
it gets me into a lot of trouble.... not all of it fun

and I see the seeds of that in you...... maybe not to my level... but that apathy.... and it makes me worried

anyway you are doing that.... now..... your allowed to worry.... just remember that it will work out..... you'll make it work out
you being very couragious