The Nascence Of My Fetishes

[lupestripe]

Many psychologists believe that kinks, fetishes and other psychological deviations from "the norm" (and please don't pick apart that term, I use it merely for reference) are fostered in childhood, particularly through childhood experiences. Thinking back, I have realised that a couple of my kinks were a part of my identity from a very early age.

Furry - Age 10 - Watching The Animals Of Farthing Wood, I remember feeling empathy for and wanting to be Fox. I also remember seeing fursuiters about (on very rare occasions) and wishing that I could get a costume of my very own.
BDSM - Age 9 - The police visited our primary school to talk about crime and self-defence techniques. They got two volunteers from the audience and put them in handcuffs. I remember feeling so jealous of them and cursing my shyness for not volunteering.
Pup Play/Rubber - Age 7 - Through The Dragon's Eye was a children's TV show involving a dragon in a rubber-clad suit. Again, I was obsessed with this. The same was true of Woof! - the kid who turned into a dog for no discernable reason. I wanted to be him!!
WAM - Age 7 - I always wanted to go on Fun House with Pat Sharpe. I was never interested in the Fun House itself, or that go-karting thing, but the gunge games. This became somewhat obsessional at an early age.

There are probably other cases if I think back hard enough but these came to me recently. For me, certainly, the way I am was definitely something borne from my early childhood. So I blame my parents :P

Comments

[doco.livejournal.com]

Hmm, that's interesting... come to think of it, I've had similar fantasies in my childhood. I vividly remember that one episode where I ended up constructing a scenario where I would get lost in a plane crash at age 21 and mutate into some horrible proto-werewolf creature as a result. You could say I was only off by a few years (given that I pretty much discovered furry fandom at age 15-16). I also remember turning a "wish ring" on a fountain and wishing for it, heh. :P

I also recall a horribly, horribly bad made-for-television film in which people were stranded on an island and taken down one by one by a mad scientist who turned them into fish-like bloated creatures with huge bellies... I can't recall for the sake of my life how that film was called, although I believe if I saw it now, 20 years later, I'd probably get nauseous from its cornyness. :P

[shep-shepherd.livejournal.com]

Seeing cartoon characters gain weight and/or inflate had a pretty profound effect on me :)

[doco.livejournal.com]

I've long loved the idea of having some sort of parasite/symbionte etc. inside me and artificially bulging me out, however the concept of being pregnant per se didn't develop in my head until my early twenties. Too many science fiction films as a kid, probably. :)

[shep-shepherd.livejournal.com]

Interesting. It's strange how childhood experiences have had such a significant effect on shaping our adult lives :)

[doco.livejournal.com]

When you're a lonely, horny teenager who's just found out he must be deviant somehow, _everything_ becomes fapping material all of a sudden. ^.^

[shep-shepherd.livejournal.com]

I went through a similar stage ^^

[lupestripe.livejournal.com]

I didn't, it's a crazy thing really. I think I am in that stage now.

[lupestripe.livejournal.com]

Didn't happen with me - it's getting worse as the years go on, if anything :P

[lupestripe.livejournal.com]

Interesting indeed - I never went as far as constructing my own scenarios - I tended to write more about animal welfare at the time. Perhaps I should have done. But then I did enter the wholes sexual/kink game rather late.

[doco.livejournal.com]

I've had a lot of strange things on my mind back then. Good thing I was an early adopter of furry, too. :D

[lupestripe.livejournal.com]

I was always far too concerned with higher-brow issues, politics, animal welfare, the human condition and the like. Only in the last two years have I started to create such scenarios for myself.