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lupestripe) wrote2009-03-26 02:27 pm
lupestripe) wrote2009-03-26 02:27 pm
Overwhelmed
First of all, may I express my deepest gratitude for all the support you have shown me this morning. It is tremendously heart-warming and I hope I can thank you all personally in the very near future.
On reflection, I blame myself for last night. I was probably too forthright in my opinion and I should have tempered what I said. However, when I am passionate about something, I always believe that honesty is the best policy. However, despite my strong view, I did not resort to abuse, I backed up my argument and there was no issue in the main channel. What bothers me was that in PM I had an hour of debate and then came the abuse from the other party.
If I offended anyone last night, I apologise. If I have offended anyone this morning, I apologise. If I EVER offend anyone, I apologise. I accept my views are sometimes trenchant and sometimes I express them too forcefully. I am a passionate guy - I wish I wasn't but I am - this is always going to be one of my failings. I have an acute sense of injustice and if I see people being hurt, I will fight their cause. This catalyses a lot of my views and the ones I expressed last night.
Furthermore, whilst I appreciate your concern, please do not turn this into drama. I can't stand drama as it's unnecessary most of the time. I have no ill-will towards anyone regarding last night - it has just made me reflect on a few things.
As I have mentioned before, a lot of the time I feel lost in the Fandom. I don't share many common interests, I struggle with what to say and I differ in viewpoint on quite a few fundamental issues. And because I am a passionate guy who has trenchant opinions, I sometimes can't keep my mouth shut. A lot of the time, I feel I am treading on egg-shells regarding what to say and this is contributing to the mood swings that I often get. I also struggle finding conversation because of a lack of common ground.
Fundamentally, everyone is different and everyone has a unique perspective on the world and on the Fandom. However, I don't feel I share a common viewpoint with a lot of furs and this has made me feel incredibly isolated over the last 18 months.
These feelings are not new, they have just been brooding for a while. The events of the last two months have triggered all this and now I really don't know what I want. Yeah I'm confused but I also know I still want to keep in touch with so many of you. As I say, I don't know what the future holds, I just hope it all works out.
Thanks and love.
On reflection, I blame myself for last night. I was probably too forthright in my opinion and I should have tempered what I said. However, when I am passionate about something, I always believe that honesty is the best policy. However, despite my strong view, I did not resort to abuse, I backed up my argument and there was no issue in the main channel. What bothers me was that in PM I had an hour of debate and then came the abuse from the other party.
If I offended anyone last night, I apologise. If I have offended anyone this morning, I apologise. If I EVER offend anyone, I apologise. I accept my views are sometimes trenchant and sometimes I express them too forcefully. I am a passionate guy - I wish I wasn't but I am - this is always going to be one of my failings. I have an acute sense of injustice and if I see people being hurt, I will fight their cause. This catalyses a lot of my views and the ones I expressed last night.
Furthermore, whilst I appreciate your concern, please do not turn this into drama. I can't stand drama as it's unnecessary most of the time. I have no ill-will towards anyone regarding last night - it has just made me reflect on a few things.
As I have mentioned before, a lot of the time I feel lost in the Fandom. I don't share many common interests, I struggle with what to say and I differ in viewpoint on quite a few fundamental issues. And because I am a passionate guy who has trenchant opinions, I sometimes can't keep my mouth shut. A lot of the time, I feel I am treading on egg-shells regarding what to say and this is contributing to the mood swings that I often get. I also struggle finding conversation because of a lack of common ground.
Fundamentally, everyone is different and everyone has a unique perspective on the world and on the Fandom. However, I don't feel I share a common viewpoint with a lot of furs and this has made me feel incredibly isolated over the last 18 months.
These feelings are not new, they have just been brooding for a while. The events of the last two months have triggered all this and now I really don't know what I want. Yeah I'm confused but I also know I still want to keep in touch with so many of you. As I say, I don't know what the future holds, I just hope it all works out.
Thanks and love.