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[lupestripe]

God, I really don't fit in, do I?

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Re: *hugs*

[dark-raven-wolf.livejournal.com]

yes... for the most part.... it's your unconscious face…… you first reaction before you censor yourself…..so you never get to so it merely feel it
your allowed to analyze things.... it's how one learns.... just realize that a lot of things are instinctual.... it is just society and the need to be part of it that makes things complicated

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*smiles*.....I don't know if I should say thank you or say your welcome

nothing in it'self..... one should be able to do what one wants to do..... with in a civil reason (We all have responsibilities and owe certain people our good behavior)

my point was..... I've long since stopped caring about thee world and about my own life.... I could die tommorow and I wouldn't care
half the time I do things.... blindly.... with out thinking about the ripples that it will create........ then deal with the problem (especially for others) post-humoriously
it gets me into a lot of trouble.... not all of it fun

and I see the seeds of that in you...... maybe not to my level... but that apathy.... and it makes me worried

anyway you are doing that.... now..... your allowed to worry.... just remember that it will work out..... you'll make it work out
you being very couragious

Re: *hugs*

[lupestripe.livejournal.com]

I am not sure what I am doing really - it felt the right thing to do and I feel a lot happier now than I was this time last week. It may wear off if the job search gets more difficult but I guess I'll see what happens. Instinct is important - gut instinct is very rarely wrong but doubts often cloud that. It's odd - what is the relationship between doubts and instinct? Does pure instinct exist? If we let that guide us, isn't it reducing human cognition to its basest form, a form that cannot really exist in the real world, a world that we have made so complicated for ourselves?

I have always tried to think of others when I come to my decisions. In fact I probably think of others too much. Like you, I don't really care too much about my own life and the world around me, but I express this in caring for others. It's a weird one.

Apathy? I don't think I am apathetic, probably the other way really. I have spent my life fighting my inherent laziness and I have succeeded, largely. The fear is though just slipping back into my own apathy. This scares me as if it was up to me, I would do nothing. But then this doesn't satiate my brain so I need to do something. But then I'd rather be lazy and do nothing. It's a constant paradoxical battle.