I guess I have always been self-conscious, particularly about my weight. It's not good. I want to be slim like all the beautiful people but, y'know, it's not something I have ever been. Long, deep-seated reasons and childhood insecurities - the worst kind y'know.

I delayed getting the suit for two years because I kept promising myself I would lose weight. I am really happy I have the suit but buying it is almost an acceptation that I am going to be this size forever. Still, I am really looking forward to wearing it over Christmas :)