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lupestripe ([personal profile] lupestripe) wrote2009-12-22 10:06 am

Feeling Fat

Three days before Christmas, this is not a good feeling. Granted, it's largely because I can't get to the gym at the moment. I live with my Dad and it's not fair for him to drive out in all the snow, late at night, to pick me up. I haven't drunk that much but little increments make a big wuff. I had been making progress a fortnight ago - I had lost some weight - but I probably have piled it back on again. I wish I could stop drinking and nibbling.

I guess the sluggishness and inertia of this time of year is taking its toll too. Clean trousers are always a little tight due to the contraction in the wash. Thing is the fleeces are a little small too. I hate my belly :-(

Ah well, guess all I can really do is sort it in January. But I have a special piece of attire (see posts below) that I need to fit into this Christmas - I just hope its stretchy and doesn't show off my hideous belly too much...

[identity profile] avon-deer.livejournal.com 2009-12-22 10:15 am (UTC)(link)
I hate mine too.

[identity profile] lupestripe.livejournal.com 2009-12-22 01:53 pm (UTC)(link)
I have the best of intentions about trying to get rid of it but I always fall into old habits. Either that, or circumstances push me in a certain direct and I fail again. I can do concerted efforts for about a fortnight but then something happens and I am back to square one.

[identity profile] marston.livejournal.com 2009-12-22 10:27 am (UTC)(link)
I *like* bellies - I wish my own paunch was concentrated like that :) I'm in a similar position, tho, unable to really exercise and already putting on a little weight.

[identity profile] lupestripe.livejournal.com 2009-12-22 01:53 pm (UTC)(link)
I wish I did, I wish it didn't bother me but sadly it does. All my fat is in the same place though - I am slim everywhere else on my body. It's bloody annoying.

[identity profile] bloodwolves.livejournal.com 2009-12-22 03:28 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm ugly fat and proud,hun.

[identity profile] lupestripe.livejournal.com 2009-12-22 07:25 pm (UTC)(link)
It's a deep-seated childhood thing, the revulsion of my fat. Being a fat kid and bullied because of it, does that to you. I wish I could just accept it but I am too judgmental about myself fearing society would be too judgmental about me.

[identity profile] silent-o.livejournal.com 2009-12-22 03:57 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm sure you look fine.

*huggles*

[identity profile] silent-o.livejournal.com 2009-12-23 12:02 am (UTC)(link)
*rubs your tummy bulge and gives you a milkbone*

So what if you've got a belly? I do too.

I don't particularly like it, but I play with the cards I'm dealt and don't dwell on it.

[identity profile] lupestripe.livejournal.com 2009-12-23 12:38 am (UTC)(link)
Ooh I like milkbones *noms* thank you.

It shouldn't matter but to me it does. Just one of those things. Wish it wasn't there :(

[identity profile] silent-o.livejournal.com 2009-12-23 12:46 am (UTC)(link)
I'll have to get you a box of milkbones sometime. ;)

If you're that set on losing the tummy... perhaps Wolfie can provide motivation? :P

[identity profile] lupestripe.livejournal.com 2009-12-23 11:36 am (UTC)(link)
I keep asking Wolfie to provide motivation but he seems reticent to do it.

Ooh milkbones - never heard of those.

[identity profile] lupestripe.livejournal.com 2009-12-24 12:38 pm (UTC)(link)
It's good to give Milk-Bone. Oh the innuendo!! Thanks for the link :)

[identity profile] hyperx.livejournal.com 2009-12-22 05:24 pm (UTC)(link)
I bet I am worse then yyyyoooouuuu ;P

[identity profile] lupestripe.livejournal.com 2009-12-22 07:25 pm (UTC)(link)
I doubt it :(

[identity profile] slinkat.livejournal.com 2009-12-22 09:10 pm (UTC)(link)
If it helps, my experience of the rubbery stuff I have is that how you look is, by and large, secondary, it's how you feel in it that counts.

[identity profile] lupestripe.livejournal.com 2009-12-22 09:55 pm (UTC)(link)
I guess I have always been self-conscious, particularly about my weight. It's not good. I want to be slim like all the beautiful people but, y'know, it's not something I have ever been. Long, deep-seated reasons and childhood insecurities - the worst kind y'know.

I delayed getting the suit for two years because I kept promising myself I would lose weight. I am really happy I have the suit but buying it is almost an acceptation that I am going to be this size forever. Still, I am really looking forward to wearing it over Christmas :)

[identity profile] shep-shepherd.livejournal.com 2009-12-22 11:22 pm (UTC)(link)
I've put on a fair bit of weight this year, and quite like it :)

[identity profile] lupestripe.livejournal.com 2009-12-22 11:24 pm (UTC)(link)
I wish I liked the idea of putting on weight. I know it shouldn't matter but for some reason, it does. As I say, it relates back to my childhood.

[identity profile] shep-shepherd.livejournal.com 2009-12-23 12:16 am (UTC)(link)
I was always thin as a kid, but over the last ten years I have put on over four stone, mainly due to being able to eat what I want and because I have a positive body image. Oh, and the fact that I find fuller figures to be somewhat pleasing ^^
Edited 2009-12-23 00:20 (UTC)

[identity profile] lupestripe.livejournal.com 2009-12-23 12:39 am (UTC)(link)
You have to go with what pleases you most - if that means becoming a more fuller figure then go for it. Unfortunately, for me, I go too far the other way. I really want to lose the gut.

[identity profile] shep-shepherd.livejournal.com 2009-12-23 10:11 am (UTC)(link)
I don't want to get really fat, but I like a bit of padding ;)

[identity profile] lupestripe.livejournal.com 2009-12-24 01:05 am (UTC)(link)
lols :)