Feeling Fat

[lupestripe]

Three days before Christmas, this is not a good feeling. Granted, it's largely because I can't get to the gym at the moment. I live with my Dad and it's not fair for him to drive out in all the snow, late at night, to pick me up. I haven't drunk that much but little increments make a big wuff. I had been making progress a fortnight ago - I had lost some weight - but I probably have piled it back on again. I wish I could stop drinking and nibbling.

I guess the sluggishness and inertia of this time of year is taking its toll too. Clean trousers are always a little tight due to the contraction in the wash. Thing is the fleeces are a little small too. I hate my belly :-(

Ah well, guess all I can really do is sort it in January. But I have a special piece of attire (see posts below) that I need to fit into this Christmas - I just hope its stretchy and doesn't show off my hideous belly too much...

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[lupestripe.livejournal.com]

I guess I have always been self-conscious, particularly about my weight. It's not good. I want to be slim like all the beautiful people but, y'know, it's not something I have ever been. Long, deep-seated reasons and childhood insecurities - the worst kind y'know.

I delayed getting the suit for two years because I kept promising myself I would lose weight. I am really happy I have the suit but buying it is almost an acceptation that I am going to be this size forever. Still, I am really looking forward to wearing it over Christmas :)