Sink Pink

I've just dyed my hair bright pink again - it needed to be done - the faded candy floss colour just looked awful and unkempt. I was starting to turn into Boris Johnson, just without the right-wing views.

Still, what I have found out today is that Middlesbrough is not the type of town to be walking around as a guy with bright pink hair. I have been shouted at and laughed at by strangers who, under any other circumstance, would just have ignored me. This doesn't particularly bother me as it comes with the territory but WHY does it have to be this way? Surely the colour of my hair is irrelevant to anything. Sometimes I despair.

The other thing I noticed is that all these people were pillioring me from far away - either from the other side of the street or from cars that sped off rather quickly. Quite clearly these intellectually sub-normal people thought they were being witty and intelligent yet quite clearly they were cowards. They remind me of the 14 year old schoolboy who calls people a "wanker" on internet chatrooms behind the safety of his computer screen (and in my line of work, I've had enough of THOSE insults to last me a lifetime).

Still, a girl in Leeds commented on how much she liked my hair plus I have just booked tickets to see one of my favourite German bands, Oomph!, play Frankfurt in November as a special birthday treat (they are playing the evening before my birthday). Indeed it's going to be quite a week - spending my birthday in Frankfurt with Wolfie before returning to Manchester for the meet. Definitely something to look forward to *bounces*

Sink Pink

I've just dyed my hair bright pink again - it needed to be done - the faded candy floss colour just looked awful and unkempt. I was starting to turn into Boris Johnson, just without the right-wing views.

Still, what I have found out today is that Middlesbrough is not the type of town to be walking around as a guy with bright pink hair. I have been shouted at and laughed at by strangers who, under any other circumstance, would just have ignored me. This doesn't particularly bother me as it comes with the territory but WHY does it have to be this way? Surely the colour of my hair is irrelevant to anything. Sometimes I despair.

The other thing I noticed is that all these people were pillioring me from far away - either from the other side of the street or from cars that sped off rather quickly. Quite clearly these intellectually sub-normal people thought they were being witty and intelligent yet quite clearly they were cowards. They remind me of the 14 year old schoolboy who calls people a "wanker" on internet chatrooms behind the safety of his computer screen (and in my line of work, I've had enough of THOSE insults to last me a lifetime).

Still, a girl in Leeds commented on how much she liked my hair plus I have just booked tickets to see one of my favourite German bands, Oomph!, play Frankfurt in November as a special birthday treat (they are playing the evening before my birthday). Indeed it's going to be quite a week - spending my birthday in Frankfurt with Wolfie before returning to Manchester for the meet. Definitely something to look forward to *bounces*

Anger Management

Over the last week or so I have had real difficulty controlling my own frustration. I get stressed too easily and this sometimes manifests itself as a boiling anger deep inside me. Over the last few days, I have probably said and done a few things that in retrospect I regret (nothing so bad as to be unresolvable though) but I am concerned that without a suitable release, these feelings are merely going to build and the situation will get worse.

I appreciate that all I am doing is lashing out against how I feel about myself but does anyone have any ways of controlling these destructive emotions? I go to the gym regularly, which does help, and I am starting to learn another language from tomorrow. I am hoping that by keeping my brain and body active, I won't have the energy to entertain these feelings. I should also meditate more but it is finding the time amidst my ridiculous (on average 55 hours a week, 6 days a week) work schedule.

I know a lot of the time I'm a warm, caring person and it distresses me that sometimes I feel so pent up that I resort to anger and bitterness. This gets me down as I pride myself as being a tolerant and decent person who tries his best to help others irrespective of how I am feeling myself. Perhaps just accepting it and not letting it get me down is a good place to start.

So how do you vent your anger and frustration and how do you stop it preying on your mind?

Anger Management

Over the last week or so I have had real difficulty controlling my own frustration. I get stressed too easily and this sometimes manifests itself as a boiling anger deep inside me. Over the last few days, I have probably said and done a few things that in retrospect I regret (nothing so bad as to be unresolvable though) but I am concerned that without a suitable release, these feelings are merely going to build and the situation will get worse.

I appreciate that all I am doing is lashing out against how I feel about myself but does anyone have any ways of controlling these destructive emotions? I go to the gym regularly, which does help, and I am starting to learn another language from tomorrow. I am hoping that by keeping my brain and body active, I won't have the energy to entertain these feelings. I should also meditate more but it is finding the time amidst my ridiculous (on average 55 hours a week, 6 days a week) work schedule.

I know a lot of the time I'm a warm, caring person and it distresses me that sometimes I feel so pent up that I resort to anger and bitterness. This gets me down as I pride myself as being a tolerant and decent person who tries his best to help others irrespective of how I am feeling myself. Perhaps just accepting it and not letting it get me down is a good place to start.

So how do you vent your anger and frustration and how do you stop it preying on your mind?