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lupestripeToday has been a very strange day. I feel that I have learned a lot - not only on how to present my views better but also on the nature of and people within the Fandom. I know that on occasions I may seem emo and I know that many of you probably can't understand why I feel the way that I do about myself. I know I am lucky in so far as most aspects of my life are complete but my mind has always played these games on me and I don't really know how to stop it.
As a group of friends, I think it's important to try and help each other through our own trials and lend a helping paw should it be needed. I accept that I made a mistake last night but that did not warrant the abuse that I received.
A lot of people were there for me today and I would like to thank you all for helping me put things in perspective. In the end, despite the negative aspects of the Fandom, there are some massive positive aspects too and I am touched by all the kind words that have been offered. Thanks also to the furs who phoned and texted me too - you know how to make a Lupe feel special :P
The reality is that I am always going to have these nueroeses because they are a part of my upbringing. Perhaps I need to try and focus on how to live with these rather than trying to change who I am. The paranoia and the fear will always be with me - it's part of my make-up - but I guess that that, in part, is what makes me who I am.
I can only apologise for the amount of times that I do become emo. I am not the most confident of people and I need a place to vent. LJ is that place. I am touched by your concern but please don't worry. It's normally just me being me.
Again, I would like to thank you for putting up with me and please know that I will do all I can to help you should you ever need it. The kind words today will not be forgotten and I would like to thank you all for accepting me. Perhaps I do fit in more than I think I do.
I will reply to your responses early next week as I am going to be away for a few days. I hope you all have a great weekend and thanks once again.
Love and hugs.
As a group of friends, I think it's important to try and help each other through our own trials and lend a helping paw should it be needed. I accept that I made a mistake last night but that did not warrant the abuse that I received.
A lot of people were there for me today and I would like to thank you all for helping me put things in perspective. In the end, despite the negative aspects of the Fandom, there are some massive positive aspects too and I am touched by all the kind words that have been offered. Thanks also to the furs who phoned and texted me too - you know how to make a Lupe feel special :P
The reality is that I am always going to have these nueroeses because they are a part of my upbringing. Perhaps I need to try and focus on how to live with these rather than trying to change who I am. The paranoia and the fear will always be with me - it's part of my make-up - but I guess that that, in part, is what makes me who I am.
I can only apologise for the amount of times that I do become emo. I am not the most confident of people and I need a place to vent. LJ is that place. I am touched by your concern but please don't worry. It's normally just me being me.
Again, I would like to thank you for putting up with me and please know that I will do all I can to help you should you ever need it. The kind words today will not be forgotten and I would like to thank you all for accepting me. Perhaps I do fit in more than I think I do.
I will reply to your responses early next week as I am going to be away for a few days. I hope you all have a great weekend and thanks once again.
Love and hugs.
