Look At These Crayons
Dec. 15th, 2014 10:34 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
lupestripeOverall it's been a good weekend although one characterised by many of my friends being in rather strange moods. This was exasperated by my own mental sublimation, which is carrying me further down the path of depression. I managed to keep it largely hidden over the course of the last two days although I made one or two comments that perhaps I wouldn't have made had I been thinking more rationally. Mexico was a great trip but it only masked the problems I was facing before I went and these have been amplified since my return. I don't know what I'm going to do but I think I need to make significant changes - and I mean significant changes - in order to restore parity. Put simply, I'm just not enjoying furry any more. I don't want to do this any more and something needs to change pretty dramatically now.
The weekend around close friends was quite fun, although as I've mentioned, moods seemed to be a little strained for a variety of personal reasons. On Saturday, we went over to Entei-rah's to partake in his annual "Entmas" Christmas dinner where there were around 14 of us getting into the Christmas spirit. The food was excellent - a full roast with all the trimmings and a range of cake and Neopolitan ice cream for dessert - while it was great getting to know the likes of Bungle more, as I have never really had chance to speak to him. There was a range of furry related videos on the television - from cute cartoons to the self-indulgent Fursuit dancing ones - while people played old school games after the meal. This isn't really my thing but it was during this time that I got to speak with Bungle so I didn't feel left out. As I've said before, I prefer small gatherings like this as it's easier to meet people and so it proved. I just wish I could have spoken to Baloki and Miles before they left early on but there was too much fun going on with the ball pit, which contained Arc for most of the evening. I enjoyed spitting balls at the back of her head. I think it was a Dashcon pastiche.
Of late I have really been trying to avoid feeling left out and one way I have done this is to watch more anime with our intermittent but reasonably regular anime clubs. This was our Sunday plan as Draken had very kindly driven us to Ent's and Arc and Draken let us stay at theirs overnight. In the end it was less an anime day and more a Disney film day, with us watching both Frozen and Tangled as well as some Christmas related anime from the Love Hina stable. I liked all of these, all great mindless fun, and I really enjoyed just chilling with a range of beers with some good friends. Over the course of the weekend I also learnt a great deal more about technology and a variety of apps I didn't even know existed - nothing to the level of anyone else but just more information to make me look and feel less stupid in a community where technology is an overarching interest. I seem to have a reputation of hating technology, which is as distressing as it is untrue, I hate my ignorance on it and the fact that it's such a dominating thing in this community. Sadly I can't really change that as it's not something that interests me but it is one of the key topics of interest that makes me feel left out.
Arc cooked us a delightful cooked breakfast while we watched the excellent Rick Stein, although I wish Wolfie had chosen scrambled rather than fried eggs for me. We also cracked open the cheese we were going to eat at Ent's on the Saturday but couldn't stomach due to the vast range of other tasty food on offer. We had booked a table at a restaurant for 7.30pm but we were so full of cheese, we decided we weren't hungry enough to warrant it, so we stayed at home wherever had pasta and watched The Quest, a fascinating abc reality show based on board games and lore and stuff like that. It was quite cleverly done, set in a proper German castle, but I did wonder just how much the contestants genuinely thought it was real. Good entertainment nonetheless.
The weekend around close friends was quite fun, although as I've mentioned, moods seemed to be a little strained for a variety of personal reasons. On Saturday, we went over to Entei-rah's to partake in his annual "Entmas" Christmas dinner where there were around 14 of us getting into the Christmas spirit. The food was excellent - a full roast with all the trimmings and a range of cake and Neopolitan ice cream for dessert - while it was great getting to know the likes of Bungle more, as I have never really had chance to speak to him. There was a range of furry related videos on the television - from cute cartoons to the self-indulgent Fursuit dancing ones - while people played old school games after the meal. This isn't really my thing but it was during this time that I got to speak with Bungle so I didn't feel left out. As I've said before, I prefer small gatherings like this as it's easier to meet people and so it proved. I just wish I could have spoken to Baloki and Miles before they left early on but there was too much fun going on with the ball pit, which contained Arc for most of the evening. I enjoyed spitting balls at the back of her head. I think it was a Dashcon pastiche.
Of late I have really been trying to avoid feeling left out and one way I have done this is to watch more anime with our intermittent but reasonably regular anime clubs. This was our Sunday plan as Draken had very kindly driven us to Ent's and Arc and Draken let us stay at theirs overnight. In the end it was less an anime day and more a Disney film day, with us watching both Frozen and Tangled as well as some Christmas related anime from the Love Hina stable. I liked all of these, all great mindless fun, and I really enjoyed just chilling with a range of beers with some good friends. Over the course of the weekend I also learnt a great deal more about technology and a variety of apps I didn't even know existed - nothing to the level of anyone else but just more information to make me look and feel less stupid in a community where technology is an overarching interest. I seem to have a reputation of hating technology, which is as distressing as it is untrue, I hate my ignorance on it and the fact that it's such a dominating thing in this community. Sadly I can't really change that as it's not something that interests me but it is one of the key topics of interest that makes me feel left out.
Arc cooked us a delightful cooked breakfast while we watched the excellent Rick Stein, although I wish Wolfie had chosen scrambled rather than fried eggs for me. We also cracked open the cheese we were going to eat at Ent's on the Saturday but couldn't stomach due to the vast range of other tasty food on offer. We had booked a table at a restaurant for 7.30pm but we were so full of cheese, we decided we weren't hungry enough to warrant it, so we stayed at home wherever had pasta and watched The Quest, a fascinating abc reality show based on board games and lore and stuff like that. It was quite cleverly done, set in a proper German castle, but I did wonder just how much the contestants genuinely thought it was real. Good entertainment nonetheless.
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Date: 2014-12-15 03:31 pm (UTC)Is Bungle the great bearskunk? If so, give him a big hug from me the next time you see him. We used to chat all of the time back around 2003.
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Date: 2014-12-18 10:19 am (UTC)