The Nascence Of My Fetishes

[lupestripe]

Many psychologists believe that kinks, fetishes and other psychological deviations from "the norm" (and please don't pick apart that term, I use it merely for reference) are fostered in childhood, particularly through childhood experiences. Thinking back, I have realised that a couple of my kinks were a part of my identity from a very early age.

Furry - Age 10 - Watching The Animals Of Farthing Wood, I remember feeling empathy for and wanting to be Fox. I also remember seeing fursuiters about (on very rare occasions) and wishing that I could get a costume of my very own.
BDSM - Age 9 - The police visited our primary school to talk about crime and self-defence techniques. They got two volunteers from the audience and put them in handcuffs. I remember feeling so jealous of them and cursing my shyness for not volunteering.
Pup Play/Rubber - Age 7 - Through The Dragon's Eye was a children's TV show involving a dragon in a rubber-clad suit. Again, I was obsessed with this. The same was true of Woof! - the kid who turned into a dog for no discernable reason. I wanted to be him!!
WAM - Age 7 - I always wanted to go on Fun House with Pat Sharpe. I was never interested in the Fun House itself, or that go-karting thing, but the gunge games. This became somewhat obsessional at an early age.

There are probably other cases if I think back hard enough but these came to me recently. For me, certainly, the way I am was definitely something borne from my early childhood. So I blame my parents :P

Comments

[lupestripe.livejournal.com]

Of course you can take a wider look and I think I have done that in some of the comments I have made. All I am saying is that I can see parts of my adult life in childhood experiences. I'm not saying they started there, I'm merely saying that an argument could be made that I had some of these interests at an early age. Is it steadfast? Of course not - many life experiences (both of ourselves and our parents) make up who we are and to ascribe a single thing as a root cause to who we are today would be folly. But it is still interesting to observe retrospectively how we grew into the people we are today.

It's not a reason for anything I am looking for - merely a thought that occurred to me whilst lying in bed last week. Is there a connection between the events I have described in childhood and my kinks today? Possibly. But I am not looking that deeply into it. I'm just saying that the groundwork for who I am as an adult was laid at an early age. Does it really matter? No. But it's nice to have an appreciation of who we are and where we come from.

I don't believe that anything is just how it is - everything has a cause and a reason for existence. I think searching for that cause, in whichever way, is something that humans have striven for for centuries. Nowadays, we use science or religion to explain such things. I don't see why there is an issue in ascribing a cause to the people we are today.

Hmm, may have a look at the Furvey. It sounds interesting in a morbidly fascinating kind of way.