It all came down from ancient times

Things are weird. I can't work out if I'm being sensitive or petulent. Probably both. Wish I wasn't sensitive but everything gets to me. I cried eight times during "The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe" ffs!! So when I feel I have been curt to someone, or not given a situation my all I feel guilty. Then I feel worse, which makes me feel guilty some more. Then I whine about it like the little pisser that I am and then I feel even more guilty. Ad infinitum. I probably shouldn't worry about it.

It's been a good week all told. Been really bouncy since Wednesday, happy even.

Monday went out and saw The Omen with Vicky and Millet, twas all right but too much like Final Destination in some of the death sequences. I don't like them, not because of the gruesomeness, I can take that, it's the pyschology of why people are fascinated in other people dying in such ways. It makes me feel ill that someone can think that up let alone commit it to celluloid. See, too sensitive. And arsey.

Film concept was fine and not too scary. The wolves were cool (as ever) but again this anti-wolf wolves are evil conspiracy that is endemic in the media reared its ugly snout again and it must be fought. I mean if it was against a race or a nationality it would be condemend so why is it accepted against wolves, huh?!

Afterwards I was moody, drank too much and the tiredness triggered the depression and stuff. Millsy threw chips and *pounced* at me to try and cheer me up and I really appreciated it! Just wish I could be my old happy self again but I think I'm getting there - the last few days been really happy! Almost deliriously so!

Work was good but there's no overtime so July may be quite a slack month. Yey! Time off I really need. Then I'll be happy again. My meditation teacher is happy with me, my boss is happy too and Steve is! So yeah am doing really well at the moment! *bounce* *bounce* *bounce*. Now I just have to be nice to people again and it will all come good, still feel a bit angry and snappy. Sorry to all those it has affected, I love you all. Please don't hold it against me. I'm just a big ball of stress at times.

England tomorrow and I feel really confident. Am really looking forward to it - am gonna go down to the pub and watch it with a few of the COB lads. Will probably drink a bit too much too but nevermind, as long as I don't get all depressed drunk again. I'm sure I won't. I think we can do them this time and we can get to the semis. Hopefully anyway. We need a big performance now and I think we'll get one! COME ON ENGLAND!!!

It all came down from ancient times

Things are weird. I can't work out if I'm being sensitive or petulent. Probably both. Wish I wasn't sensitive but everything gets to me. I cried eight times during "The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe" ffs!! So when I feel I have been curt to someone, or not given a situation my all I feel guilty. Then I feel worse, which makes me feel guilty some more. Then I whine about it like the little pisser that I am and then I feel even more guilty. Ad infinitum. I probably shouldn't worry about it.

It's been a good week all told. Been really bouncy since Wednesday, happy even.

Monday went out and saw The Omen with Vicky and Millet, twas all right but too much like Final Destination in some of the death sequences. I don't like them, not because of the gruesomeness, I can take that, it's the pyschology of why people are fascinated in other people dying in such ways. It makes me feel ill that someone can think that up let alone commit it to celluloid. See, too sensitive. And arsey.

Film concept was fine and not too scary. The wolves were cool (as ever) but again this anti-wolf wolves are evil conspiracy that is endemic in the media reared its ugly snout again and it must be fought. I mean if it was against a race or a nationality it would be condemend so why is it accepted against wolves, huh?!

Afterwards I was moody, drank too much and the tiredness triggered the depression and stuff. Millsy threw chips and *pounced* at me to try and cheer me up and I really appreciated it! Just wish I could be my old happy self again but I think I'm getting there - the last few days been really happy! Almost deliriously so!

Work was good but there's no overtime so July may be quite a slack month. Yey! Time off I really need. Then I'll be happy again. My meditation teacher is happy with me, my boss is happy too and Steve is! So yeah am doing really well at the moment! *bounce* *bounce* *bounce*. Now I just have to be nice to people again and it will all come good, still feel a bit angry and snappy. Sorry to all those it has affected, I love you all. Please don't hold it against me. I'm just a big ball of stress at times.

England tomorrow and I feel really confident. Am really looking forward to it - am gonna go down to the pub and watch it with a few of the COB lads. Will probably drink a bit too much too but nevermind, as long as I don't get all depressed drunk again. I'm sure I won't. I think we can do them this time and we can get to the semis. Hopefully anyway. We need a big performance now and I think we'll get one! COME ON ENGLAND!!!