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Aug. 9th, 2020 01:51 pmIt's been a very busy week on account of starting my own company with two other people on Monday. We had been talking about it for much of July, but there was little we could do until we were legally severed from our previous place of employment. However, with the date passed on 31 July, it has given us the freedom to set up on our own. We have spotted a few niches in the market and we shouldn't be in direct competition with our former employers (although we will be operating in the same space), and I think our combined talents and resultant opportunities should be enough to make a success of it. I was expecting something of a light entry into it though, not least because I will be doing logistics rather than sales, but last week was very much a full working week and so I am back to the grindstone. It's amazing how much of your life work takes up as I have been struggling to do all the things I was doing during furlough (with Animal Crossing and my 10,000 daily steps really being the only things surviving and even then my step count is on average considerably down), but at least after four months I now have a sense of direction and purpose, along with my destiny in my own hands. After four months of largely fruitless job searching, I have also come to the conclusion that this is the best opportunity open to me now, while it should also enable me to realise my dream of moving to an EU member state by the end of the year. Wolfie has his fourth and final job interview to that end on Tuesday and I'm hoping it's successful. While Stockholm would be a lot easier for relocation purposes for me, I should be able to do Berlin too as I now know where to get advice plus we know a number of people there. We'll see what happens.
WIth work dominating the week, there has been little else going on. The weather has been quite warm, but nowhere near as balmy as it has been in the South, while the lack of sun is really starting to get to me. Granted, it made being stuck inside working more bearable, but we are nearly midway through August and we've barely seen sunshine in two months. Yesterday, at least, was reasonably pleasant and I did manage to sit outside, sharing a 5L keg of Meanwood Brewery beer with Wolfie, but we are back to clouds again today with the sun struggling to poke itself out behind them. All rather frustrating.
The usual social events took place this week - Gothi's metal set on Friday and Stray's Jackbox Games on Saturday, although I don't know how long the latter will continue. Like Stray, I am not sure I can afford a Sunday feeling like shite after a lengthy evening of drinking, not least because it is now only one of two days off I get. Furthermore, while I can set my own working hours, I should at least rock up in the morning making the 5am bedtimes somewhat impractical. I do enjoy the Jackbox evenings though and wish them to continue, we may just have to change the format slightly. If I was being honest, I am enjoying the Sunday evening chill live gig streaming sessions more, as they are a relaxing way to bookend the weekend, while Gothi's bouncy rock set, where we can make requests and be weird on a live chat facilitiy that is streamed next to the event, is a great way to start the two-day break.
My mood has levelled slightly since last week, although I am still on edge an awful lot. I'm caught between wanting to do everything around the house and feeling guilty when Wolfie does anything, to being so stressed out and upset that Wolfie isn't helping. I am not being fair to him but my feelings are erratic - deep love followed by frustration and anger and back again - all within the space of a few minutes. I think being locked in the house for the best part of five months is really starting to get to me and I am craving normality again. I know that's unlikely, and a big ask right now, but it would be great just to leave Yorkshire. Of course, we do have plans for Leicestershire at the end of the month, but with more places being added to local lockdowns and knowing that the number of cases in Leeds has tripled in the last week, I am starting to fear being stuck here more. The big fear, though, is being trapped here at the end of the year and not being able to get out of Brexit Britain. I am hoping plans will become more solid later in the week.
Another positive is the possibility of seeing my parents later in the month, for the first time since 10 February, which was my grandmother's funeral. Indeed, I haven't seen them properly since Christmas, but I may need to go and see an accountant in Durham for the business and this means I may be able to call in, albeit briefly. I may also need to be in Kidderminster to see our lawyer, which I am going to try and combine with the Leicestershire trip. This is certainly what I would do if times were normal, but of course things are still quite strange right now. I guess it's just a case of seeing how things develop and taking it from there.
WIth work dominating the week, there has been little else going on. The weather has been quite warm, but nowhere near as balmy as it has been in the South, while the lack of sun is really starting to get to me. Granted, it made being stuck inside working more bearable, but we are nearly midway through August and we've barely seen sunshine in two months. Yesterday, at least, was reasonably pleasant and I did manage to sit outside, sharing a 5L keg of Meanwood Brewery beer with Wolfie, but we are back to clouds again today with the sun struggling to poke itself out behind them. All rather frustrating.
The usual social events took place this week - Gothi's metal set on Friday and Stray's Jackbox Games on Saturday, although I don't know how long the latter will continue. Like Stray, I am not sure I can afford a Sunday feeling like shite after a lengthy evening of drinking, not least because it is now only one of two days off I get. Furthermore, while I can set my own working hours, I should at least rock up in the morning making the 5am bedtimes somewhat impractical. I do enjoy the Jackbox evenings though and wish them to continue, we may just have to change the format slightly. If I was being honest, I am enjoying the Sunday evening chill live gig streaming sessions more, as they are a relaxing way to bookend the weekend, while Gothi's bouncy rock set, where we can make requests and be weird on a live chat facilitiy that is streamed next to the event, is a great way to start the two-day break.
My mood has levelled slightly since last week, although I am still on edge an awful lot. I'm caught between wanting to do everything around the house and feeling guilty when Wolfie does anything, to being so stressed out and upset that Wolfie isn't helping. I am not being fair to him but my feelings are erratic - deep love followed by frustration and anger and back again - all within the space of a few minutes. I think being locked in the house for the best part of five months is really starting to get to me and I am craving normality again. I know that's unlikely, and a big ask right now, but it would be great just to leave Yorkshire. Of course, we do have plans for Leicestershire at the end of the month, but with more places being added to local lockdowns and knowing that the number of cases in Leeds has tripled in the last week, I am starting to fear being stuck here more. The big fear, though, is being trapped here at the end of the year and not being able to get out of Brexit Britain. I am hoping plans will become more solid later in the week.
Another positive is the possibility of seeing my parents later in the month, for the first time since 10 February, which was my grandmother's funeral. Indeed, I haven't seen them properly since Christmas, but I may need to go and see an accountant in Durham for the business and this means I may be able to call in, albeit briefly. I may also need to be in Kidderminster to see our lawyer, which I am going to try and combine with the Leicestershire trip. This is certainly what I would do if times were normal, but of course things are still quite strange right now. I guess it's just a case of seeing how things develop and taking it from there.
