Mongrels and MW3

[lupestripe]

Proof, if proof were needed, that I will never fully fit in around these parts.

And this grey clingy rainy autumnal crap weather is hardly helping my apathy either.

I promise I will be more positive soon, try and get the bouncy happy me back. There was some of that at FE this weekend but mentally I am finding things tough right now. Wolfie says I dwell on the negatives too much - he may be right. But when you are hurting, this is what you are wont to do. Psychology sucks. Being a depressive sucks more.

I know I have nothing to feel down about but rationality often struggles in the emotional realm. My moods have always been erratic and this is just another manifestation. I wish it wasn't like this but it is. I will just have to try and dig myself out of it.

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If I am working, I prefer it when it's like this, I admit. It's the darkness that gets me though, I get sick of the relentless gloom.

Feelings have always been odd with me. I know I should be happy at the moment - things are going well and compared to many others I am fortunate - but as you say, I don't feel it. I need to keep busy but that brings its own problems.