It's a gym thing...
Feb. 5th, 2008 04:17 pmIn an attempt to finally lose the belly that has dogged me (and not dogged in a good sense) for the last nineteen years, last week I joined a gym. Well tonight is my first session and I must admit I am bricking it.
I am not precisely sure why but I guess I have always felt intimidated around fit people. This, I think, is because I was a child of the Eighties where muscles and machismo went hand in hand. Equally I think there is a large portion of my inferiority complex playing its hand here and it may possibly be that such images of the Eighties actually sewed the seeds of it.
I know this is an irrational fear and one that is completely unfounded but often our fears defy all rationality. Added to this is that the world today is very different from the one twenty years ago - being gay I should be more aware of this than most people.
Still, I want to lose weight and get stronger (particularly in my upper body) and you don't move forward in life unless you tackle your fears head on. So although I'm scared I'm also anticipating it slightly too. I have less than four hours to go...
I am not precisely sure why but I guess I have always felt intimidated around fit people. This, I think, is because I was a child of the Eighties where muscles and machismo went hand in hand. Equally I think there is a large portion of my inferiority complex playing its hand here and it may possibly be that such images of the Eighties actually sewed the seeds of it.
I know this is an irrational fear and one that is completely unfounded but often our fears defy all rationality. Added to this is that the world today is very different from the one twenty years ago - being gay I should be more aware of this than most people.
Still, I want to lose weight and get stronger (particularly in my upper body) and you don't move forward in life unless you tackle your fears head on. So although I'm scared I'm also anticipating it slightly too. I have less than four hours to go...
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Date: 2008-02-05 05:00 pm (UTC)If it'll help at all, join my community!
If it'll help at all, join my community!
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I'm aiming for the same as you, I probably need a little more, but I find swimming as much as you can helps a lot :)
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Date: 2008-02-08 10:25 pm (UTC)Ooh what's the community? Looks interesting. To be honest, swimming is now the one thing I am scared of lols, I dunno if I look good in just my shorts *blushes*
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Date: 2008-02-08 10:38 pm (UTC)i remember you looking good in shorts ^^
i didnt think youd need any luck, cause it can be easy to do for the right people, and i know you'll be able to stick to it :)
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Date: 2008-02-09 12:51 am (UTC)I don't know about being able to stick to it, I tend to do things for a couple of months and then get bored with it. I don't know, we'll see. I often start off enthusiastic and then that tends to tail.
I wouldn't say I was the right person for the gym although I have proved I can get on with those I have met there so perhaps you are right. I'm about as far from the macho stereotype as it's possible to get...
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Date: 2008-02-05 05:29 pm (UTC)I mean, really, IF somebody says something, then the only thing they'll have accomplished is that they embarassed themselves in front of everyone else. It may seem like all the others who remain silent and uninvolved secretly agree with that person, but in reality, they're all going to roll their eyes (metaphorically speaking, at the very least) at the idiot.
And it's a pretty big IF, anyway; I doubt anyone's going to do that. And IF it happens, do go to the employees and complain about it; you're a paying customer, after all, and it should be in their best interest to provide a friendly atmosphere where everyone can feel comfortable.
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Date: 2008-02-08 10:29 pm (UTC)You're right, most people were really friendly, particularly the employees who understood my fears completely. I guess they have heard it many times before.
It was quite interesting really as even the people you think look fit were struggling just as much as I was. I find this kinda reassuring too because it means that I'm not as bad as I thought I was *wags*
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Date: 2008-02-05 09:31 pm (UTC)But Belly's gonna get you!!!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wHlvKQwZFSI
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Date: 2008-02-06 01:27 pm (UTC)I thought that too, that it was gonna be muscly sweaty fit people but its not, its all middle aged women and pudgy blokes.
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