All Those Happy Wishes
Oct. 22nd, 2023 10:47 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
lupestripeI cannot remember ever being this tired, particularly on a Sunday evening. We have deliberately not done very much this weekend but I am still as knackered at the end of it as I was at the beginning. The weather was really good and I did regret the lazy weekend, but fundamentally I did need it, what with the next fortnight looking exceptionally busy. The one thing we were going to do was Qualgeist today for Coffee, Sex and Cake, but I never really had the energy to go. Considering I haven't been since March and Wolfie hasn't been for much longer, I am starting to wonder what the point of our membership is. I really would like to do more fetish things - and next week we have SinFur, which is a six-hour journey each way for just one evening - but I am so lethargic that I don't have the desire to do anything. I am also in the middle of Locktober and it's starting to hurt. I used to be fine not being able to come for a month, but October is one of my horny months and I am really pent up. I do enjoy being submissive, but it's not really helping my mental state, which again has an awful lot to content with right now. I'm worrying about everything and that's incredibly draining, while none of this is being helped by political and global events, which are causing real existential dread.
Last week was another busy one, not aided by the four-hour delay getting back to Berlin on Monday. I have a lot on my mind right now, including whether it makes sense to remain in the country, as my doubts about being here are still swirling. This was only enhanced on Thursday evening when we met the Fureigners for the usual bar meet-up. It seems that I am arranging these nowadays and again I misjudged the attendance, booking too few spaces at the table. Furthermore, it was BrewDog's Collabfest weekend so the bar was rammed. This meant that not everyone got a seat and Seabass had to perch on someone's knee all evening (not that he seemed to mind). When polling the group in the Telegram chat prior to the event, most fancied trying the beers, and doing this on Thursday meant we didn't have to come out again later in the weekend, saving time and money. We have done every Collabfest so far and it was good to do it again, even if the beer selection was dramatically paired down compared with previous years. Despite this, like last year, Brewdog Mitte only had 13 brews on tap but unlike last year, these were all from the UK. The selection was very strong, with Bournemouth's Milkshake IPA and Brighton's Lemon Sherbet-inspired beer being the highlight. There were no bad beers, but there were some standard IPAs. The Irish barman who served us was good craic and very helpful, telling me he was aware that Mitte was the fourth busiest bar in the entire Brewdog fleet. Anyway, it was a decent enough evening but I struggle to speak with a large number of furs in the community here, largely because their interests do not intersect with mine. I do feel lonely and left out, even though I don't know whether people are meeting independently or not. Either way, we seem to be spending an awful lot of money to just do our own thing when our UK friends are clamoring to see us (just today, for example, Oracle asked if we could meet up with him when we are back in November). I have also been worried about the UK house due to the stormy weather, as well as my future employment situation and the best way to get everything in order. I know I'll need to seek advice, but right now, I still don't know how it will pan out. Ultimately, it will be easier if we just moved back (but of course I have Wolfie to consider too).
There are some highlights though. There is a new rock and metal night at Zitadelle, which a few of our floor want to visit, so I suspect we'll be out next Friday with the neighbours. This Friday, we had an enjoyable four-hour metal set by DJ Moneiflow (i.e. Wolfienom backwards), which I really enjoyed, even if I do find his VNFF group a little difficult to relate to. I also managed to submit another story to an anthology and finish my next SoFurry piece, so despite the tiredness, I have been productive.
Last week was another busy one, not aided by the four-hour delay getting back to Berlin on Monday. I have a lot on my mind right now, including whether it makes sense to remain in the country, as my doubts about being here are still swirling. This was only enhanced on Thursday evening when we met the Fureigners for the usual bar meet-up. It seems that I am arranging these nowadays and again I misjudged the attendance, booking too few spaces at the table. Furthermore, it was BrewDog's Collabfest weekend so the bar was rammed. This meant that not everyone got a seat and Seabass had to perch on someone's knee all evening (not that he seemed to mind). When polling the group in the Telegram chat prior to the event, most fancied trying the beers, and doing this on Thursday meant we didn't have to come out again later in the weekend, saving time and money. We have done every Collabfest so far and it was good to do it again, even if the beer selection was dramatically paired down compared with previous years. Despite this, like last year, Brewdog Mitte only had 13 brews on tap but unlike last year, these were all from the UK. The selection was very strong, with Bournemouth's Milkshake IPA and Brighton's Lemon Sherbet-inspired beer being the highlight. There were no bad beers, but there were some standard IPAs. The Irish barman who served us was good craic and very helpful, telling me he was aware that Mitte was the fourth busiest bar in the entire Brewdog fleet. Anyway, it was a decent enough evening but I struggle to speak with a large number of furs in the community here, largely because their interests do not intersect with mine. I do feel lonely and left out, even though I don't know whether people are meeting independently or not. Either way, we seem to be spending an awful lot of money to just do our own thing when our UK friends are clamoring to see us (just today, for example, Oracle asked if we could meet up with him when we are back in November). I have also been worried about the UK house due to the stormy weather, as well as my future employment situation and the best way to get everything in order. I know I'll need to seek advice, but right now, I still don't know how it will pan out. Ultimately, it will be easier if we just moved back (but of course I have Wolfie to consider too).
There are some highlights though. There is a new rock and metal night at Zitadelle, which a few of our floor want to visit, so I suspect we'll be out next Friday with the neighbours. This Friday, we had an enjoyable four-hour metal set by DJ Moneiflow (i.e. Wolfienom backwards), which I really enjoyed, even if I do find his VNFF group a little difficult to relate to. I also managed to submit another story to an anthology and finish my next SoFurry piece, so despite the tiredness, I have been productive.
