Leaving The Fandom
Mar. 26th, 2009 09:26 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
lupestripeI am writing this with a tear in my eye.
After last night's IRC debate on open relationships where I tried to explain my view rationally before being told to "burn and die" for daring to leave at 4:45am because I had work this morning, I feel that I have little option but to distance myself further from the Fandom. It is patently evident (and has been for some time) that I have fundamentally different beliefs when compared to the majority of the Fandom and this is the reason why I feel so isolated a lot of the time.
I also feel that if my view is going to be treat in such a way then I would rather socialise with people who took a more adult approach to life rather than the drama-fuelled rants of people on IRC and IM. I have therefore decided to remove myself completely for the foreseeable from all such social networking media because I don't need the hassle or the drama.
Quite clearly, it is not good to base friendships on things where you fundamentally differ and therefore I have decided to take much more of a back seat in the Fandom. I have a lot of very close furry friends who I love and who I would love to keep in touch with but from hereonin, I am going to have to do this on an individual level. The lack of common interests, as well as fundamental philosophical world view, is also causing me considerable pain and although individually, this is easy to deal with, when it comes to a group, I just don't feel accepted. That's probably more to do with me than the group - perhaps it's not just for me (however much I would like it to be so).
The sad fact is that the whole concept of furry is no longer making me happy and I feel that now is the time to move on in my life. I would still love to keep in contact with a lot of my furry friends, who I love and admire, but I no longer feel I can do this on a group level. Put simply, the events of the last two months have hurt me too much.
I feel I have to protect myself. I am far too fragile and I care too much to allow things to keep going in the way that they are now. I am so sorry I feel like this but things need to change and I feel that this is the best course of action. It hurts that this was supposed to be my utopia and it has ended in such a way but I don't see what further options I have. This may all pass in the next few weeks but this is the culmination of 18 months of loneliness and frustration so I am not sure. I don't know what the future holds.
If you want to keep in touch, PM or email me as there are a good few people I would love to keep in touch with. Please don't read this as drama, me being emo or however else I am perceived to be. I know I am flawed, I know this may hurt you, but I am merely being honest. I wanted this to work - I just don't see how I can fit in.
Peace and love - I can honestly say I love all those who are mutual friends on LJ.
Lupe.
After last night's IRC debate on open relationships where I tried to explain my view rationally before being told to "burn and die" for daring to leave at 4:45am because I had work this morning, I feel that I have little option but to distance myself further from the Fandom. It is patently evident (and has been for some time) that I have fundamentally different beliefs when compared to the majority of the Fandom and this is the reason why I feel so isolated a lot of the time.
I also feel that if my view is going to be treat in such a way then I would rather socialise with people who took a more adult approach to life rather than the drama-fuelled rants of people on IRC and IM. I have therefore decided to remove myself completely for the foreseeable from all such social networking media because I don't need the hassle or the drama.
Quite clearly, it is not good to base friendships on things where you fundamentally differ and therefore I have decided to take much more of a back seat in the Fandom. I have a lot of very close furry friends who I love and who I would love to keep in touch with but from hereonin, I am going to have to do this on an individual level. The lack of common interests, as well as fundamental philosophical world view, is also causing me considerable pain and although individually, this is easy to deal with, when it comes to a group, I just don't feel accepted. That's probably more to do with me than the group - perhaps it's not just for me (however much I would like it to be so).
The sad fact is that the whole concept of furry is no longer making me happy and I feel that now is the time to move on in my life. I would still love to keep in contact with a lot of my furry friends, who I love and admire, but I no longer feel I can do this on a group level. Put simply, the events of the last two months have hurt me too much.
I feel I have to protect myself. I am far too fragile and I care too much to allow things to keep going in the way that they are now. I am so sorry I feel like this but things need to change and I feel that this is the best course of action. It hurts that this was supposed to be my utopia and it has ended in such a way but I don't see what further options I have. This may all pass in the next few weeks but this is the culmination of 18 months of loneliness and frustration so I am not sure. I don't know what the future holds.
If you want to keep in touch, PM or email me as there are a good few people I would love to keep in touch with. Please don't read this as drama, me being emo or however else I am perceived to be. I know I am flawed, I know this may hurt you, but I am merely being honest. I wanted this to work - I just don't see how I can fit in.
Peace and love - I can honestly say I love all those who are mutual friends on LJ.
Lupe.
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Date: 2009-03-26 10:31 am (UTC)