one can never let one's self down by being true to personality especially when your that person it's just that to be true to yourself....you may have to be abnormal to Society
which mean that a large majority of the population will never understand why you can't be like them,,,, you are a huskey not sheep.... don't go changing
But what is the true self? Surely you are only ever your true self when you are alone, as we all put fronts on when we are in public.
I am a husky indeed - I just fear no-one empathises and I don't have any empathy in return. For anyone. It scares me. Perhaps it's just the depression taking hold :(
your true self is the face you show your true friends...... yes not many people show it but you should never be ashamed of it........ I woould have to watch you fro a week to give a better answer then that
---------------------------------------- empathy is a dieing art..... that I will sadly admit...... It's something I will always struggle with.... I'll admit that too I've never had the time for it frankly.... I just speak the honest truth as I see it..... which can make me a bastard for every time it makes me seem kind
-------------------------------------- *sigh*...... not that this is going to help you.... but you want to know my secret.......
I don't care enough about my life to make it complex...... I just do what I want....regardless of the consequences I may make reparations after…… but that doesn’t stop me from doing it again exactly the same way
it's a sad way to live..... but i've long since given up on the world
and that's why I'll fight so hard for you..... don't end up like me
*nods* - I guess I analyse too much. The true self is always something that is hard to plumb the depths of and I guess the person who is least likely to ever discover it is your own self.
Why is living life how you want to live it necessarily a bad thing? I wish I had the courage to do that sometimes. I have just quit my job and I am already worrying about the repercussions, even though I have enough money for the next few months and a supportive mate and family.
You're just great hun, you have been really supportive to me and for that I am very appreciative :)
yes... for the most part.... it's your unconscious face…… you first reaction before you censor yourself…..so you never get to so it merely feel it your allowed to analyze things.... it's how one learns.... just realize that a lot of things are instinctual.... it is just society and the need to be part of it that makes things complicated
------------------------------- *smiles*.....I don't know if I should say thank you or say your welcome
nothing in it'self..... one should be able to do what one wants to do..... with in a civil reason (We all have responsibilities and owe certain people our good behavior)
my point was..... I've long since stopped caring about thee world and about my own life.... I could die tommorow and I wouldn't care half the time I do things.... blindly.... with out thinking about the ripples that it will create........ then deal with the problem (especially for others) post-humoriously it gets me into a lot of trouble.... not all of it fun
and I see the seeds of that in you...... maybe not to my level... but that apathy.... and it makes me worried
anyway you are doing that.... now..... your allowed to worry.... just remember that it will work out..... you'll make it work out you being very couragious
I am not sure what I am doing really - it felt the right thing to do and I feel a lot happier now than I was this time last week. It may wear off if the job search gets more difficult but I guess I'll see what happens. Instinct is important - gut instinct is very rarely wrong but doubts often cloud that. It's odd - what is the relationship between doubts and instinct? Does pure instinct exist? If we let that guide us, isn't it reducing human cognition to its basest form, a form that cannot really exist in the real world, a world that we have made so complicated for ourselves?
I have always tried to think of others when I come to my decisions. In fact I probably think of others too much. Like you, I don't really care too much about my own life and the world around me, but I express this in caring for others. It's a weird one.
Apathy? I don't think I am apathetic, probably the other way really. I have spent my life fighting my inherent laziness and I have succeeded, largely. The fear is though just slipping back into my own apathy. This scares me as if it was up to me, I would do nothing. But then this doesn't satiate my brain so I need to do something. But then I'd rather be lazy and do nothing. It's a constant paradoxical battle.
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Date: 2009-12-07 02:10 pm (UTC)especially when your that person
it's just that to be true to yourself....you may have to be abnormal to Society
which mean that a large majority of the population will never understand why you can't be like them,,,, you are a huskey not sheep.... don't go changing
Re: *hugs*
Date: 2009-12-07 07:53 pm (UTC)I am a husky indeed - I just fear no-one empathises and I don't have any empathy in return. For anyone. It scares me. Perhaps it's just the depression taking hold :(
Re: *hugs*
Date: 2009-12-08 01:33 pm (UTC)but you should never be ashamed of it........ I woould have to watch you fro a week to give a better answer then that
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empathy is a dieing art..... that I will sadly admit......
It's something I will always struggle with.... I'll admit that too
I've never had the time for it frankly.... I just speak the honest truth as I see it..... which can make me a bastard for every time it makes me seem kind
--------------------------------------
*sigh*...... not that this is going to help you.... but you want to know my secret.......
I don't care enough about my life to make it complex...... I just do what I want....regardless of the consequences I may make reparations after…… but that doesn’t stop me from doing it again exactly the same way
it's a sad way to live..... but i've long since given up on the world
and that's why I'll fight so hard for you..... don't end up like me
Re: *hugs*
Date: 2009-12-09 11:14 pm (UTC)Why is living life how you want to live it necessarily a bad thing? I wish I had the courage to do that sometimes. I have just quit my job and I am already worrying about the repercussions, even though I have enough money for the next few months and a supportive mate and family.
You're just great hun, you have been really supportive to me and for that I am very appreciative :)
Re: *hugs*
Date: 2009-12-11 12:37 pm (UTC)your allowed to analyze things.... it's how one learns.... just realize that a lot of things are instinctual.... it is just society and the need to be part of it that makes things complicated
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*smiles*.....I don't know if I should say thank you or say your welcome
nothing in it'self..... one should be able to do what one wants to do..... with in a civil reason (We all have responsibilities and owe certain people our good behavior)
my point was..... I've long since stopped caring about thee world and about my own life.... I could die tommorow and I wouldn't care
half the time I do things.... blindly.... with out thinking about the ripples that it will create........ then deal with the problem (especially for others) post-humoriously
it gets me into a lot of trouble.... not all of it fun
and I see the seeds of that in you...... maybe not to my level... but that apathy.... and it makes me worried
anyway you are doing that.... now..... your allowed to worry.... just remember that it will work out..... you'll make it work out
you being very couragious
Re: *hugs*
Date: 2009-12-14 10:53 pm (UTC)I have always tried to think of others when I come to my decisions. In fact I probably think of others too much. Like you, I don't really care too much about my own life and the world around me, but I express this in caring for others. It's a weird one.
Apathy? I don't think I am apathetic, probably the other way really. I have spent my life fighting my inherent laziness and I have succeeded, largely. The fear is though just slipping back into my own apathy. This scares me as if it was up to me, I would do nothing. But then this doesn't satiate my brain so I need to do something. But then I'd rather be lazy and do nothing. It's a constant paradoxical battle.